| life sux so bad. but maybe its fer the best. iono. ima fukkin bum now bekause of nothing. i didnt do shit. i never did shit to deserve this shit. like f'real. i do everythin im asked to the best of my ability and i give up everything i have. everything. i dont have a job and the only doe i get nowadays is like 40 bux every 2 weeks but i give it up to my fam. even my gurl gives up money to buy them shit. she even bought drinks fer the house. she also bought a water pitcher filter thing so we dont have to buy as much water anymore. she helps me klean the pad too. i bust my ass to watch those kids and i do it fer free. my fam took so much advantage of me its not funny. my bro took me in only bekause he has no roomate but i have to leave in less then a week kus hes leavin too. i have no where to go. yeh i kan live at lances but what about all my stuff. im not gonna jus dithc it or trash it. esp my komp. the only thing i kan bring there is myself. yeh its a place to stay but its not my home. where i have my own room. my own tv. my own blankets. some place where me n my gurl kan have our time together. i kant do that there. i wudnt even feel ryt using their bathrooms. man. my sister is soo bomedy. she preaches ot me tryin to get me to stay only to fukkin babysit. and as soon as i leave she kleans my room out? what kinda shit is that. i do way more fer my mom now n before then she has. i hate life sometimes. its jus not fair. im not askin fer a million dollars or a mansion. i jus want to feel safe n sekure and not have to worry abuot someone taking advantage of me knowing that id drop everything im doin jus to lend a hand. ppl in this worl are too bomedy. my headaches get worse and worse by the hour while holding my tears in. ima explode one day. bekause the pain i feel is konstantly gettin deeper n deeper and i have no klue why its happenin to me. i knoe leavin the house is a part of growing up but when its sprung upon u and u have no place to go things get hard. this shits driving me krazy and shootin me into depression. i jus wanna die sometimes. bekause this pain..the headaches.. jus everything.... im dying. |
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| fer me.. life is sort of a struggle yet perfekt. my love life is at its peak and will remain that way.. im happy and content.. other than that life is trash.. im in search for a job that pays good and still schooling it.. my grades are good but i just dont have drive anymore.. my moms still buggin out and always trippin about my sister and the house filled with her mess and yet expekts me to klean it? umm nnaaww.. not boo.. it sux when you do stuff fer ppl and dont get gratifikation.. its not what you do it for but its nice to here at least a thank you. but hey. thats how ppl are ryt? i need help filling out fafsa and kant get any help. sux but o well. im tryin my hardest to make the bestof life and i have esha to help me do that. life is great but is a struggle |
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| im up early.. and im pretty bored.. jimmy neutrons on but its pretty whakk.. um i miss my gf.. geez wake up already i essa.. ima shoe sshiiyyeett.. and i gotta wait till like 3 to see you.. thats that major whakk type.. bleh. anywhose.. life fer me is good.. skoo isnt bad and the fam is whatever.. i feel like drawin but then again thats pretty whakk to esp. in the mornin.. anywhose.. ima go n lay my ass bakk down or eat er suntheen... haha ima shoe baby.. love you.. and to the rest of the ppl out there.. peace out bitches!!!! |
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| Back in school. so now im kewl. get wit it or get out.. i love my esha.. and i love life.. peace out like yesterday. |
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| lifes good.. =) i love my esha.. i love my family.. time to fokus on skoo... on some real type ya feel me ish.. peace OUT! |
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